Ebbs & Flows, Highs & Lows

Anyway, I didn't get dressed up to stay at home and feel sorry for myself. Hehe. I was still determined to make the most of the day. I wore my kick ass black zipper jacket and comfy panda sweater, then sealed the deal with a lightweight purple scarf. I'm also wearing my tried and true black Chicwish high-low skirt. I'm glad I decided to pay a bit extra for it. The quality is fantastic and the length is perfect. Underneath that lies my golden, glittery suspender tights and my short black boots which I have come to love so much and wear quite often womens cardigans. I also carried my braided black fringe purse from Chicnova and wore a gold filigree collar necklace and gold studded wrap watch, both of which are from TIL Darling. Don't worry! By now I've weathered the storm and I'm back to normal. I think it's natural to experience such ups and downs, even when there is apparently no reason for it. It gives me a chance to be a little more introspective and investigate my own thoughts and feelings so I can better understand myself. :PToday, I am contemporaneously reminded of my mortality and of my incredible oldness. I have been on this Earth for decades. I played with a clunky Polaroid camera as a kid (the birthday themed film was my fav, you guys); I saw the beginnings of the internet (AOL IRC ICQ LOL WTF BBQ); I actually know what "dial-up" is; I know what a "modem" looks like; I know what a "floppy disk" looks like (I had some good games on those); I made mix tapes as a young teen which included greats such as Depeche Mode, Jamiroquai, Janet Jackson & The Pointer Sisters (I had eclectic tastes, shut up! Heh). I enjoyed roller skates; I went to warehouse raves before they were trendy hoodies for women; I hated my parents; I hated being tall; I hated my feet; I hated my Christian private school; I hated a lot of things actually. Atheism predated the beginning of my menstrual cycles; angst drove me to fill countless notebooks with poetry. I devoured books like "The Boxcar Children," "Goosebumps" (so cool, you guys and borderline too creepy for kids..); "The Lord of the Rings," "Dragonlance," and various choose your own adventure books; I fell in love with English, Etymology and track and field; I went to college, where I became enamored with Philosophy; while there, I traveled alone to a foreign land; I learned a second language; I became inundated with wanderlust; I saw my future; I went to graduate school and here I am.